stepping out

I feel that my life is at a watershed.  Recent events have made me think rather differently about many things.  I don’t think ‘think’ is the right word.  It’s more like ‘feel’.

Some recent family issues had made me care less about many things I used to care a lot about.  I get less bothered by certain issues.  It’s weird.  The day after we found out, I decided that I wanted to go to grad school, and complete it as quickly as I can.  I’d like to start my own family during those years.  I want to push forward in life.  I need to put and end to my aimless days in my aimless job.  I need to stop all that bumming around.

I took heed of what my colleague told me.  Subconsciously, I already knew most of his observations about the state of leadership in my lab.  His final message was this: if I’m not working towards where I want to go, I ought to sit up and do something about it.  I may not succeed, but I won’t get to regret not trying.

And I did.  A little step at a time.